A wish for Papa...

I'm so touched today as I received an email from my beloved Papa, wishing me a pre-Birthday wish. Since he will be away and might not have access to contact me in the next few days, he sent me a birthday wish, just in case. It has been a while since I made contact with him, due to both of our busy schedule.

I really look up to Papa. He's been through a lot in life... but still manage to smile and stay calm. He's a very wise man. He will always have something inspiring to tell and brighten up my days with his wise jokes. I respect him for being so patient and calm... a trait that unfortunately, I don't inherit. Oh, but he gives good presentations - the one natural skill that he passed on to me ;)

As I look back through the years, I realised that I didn't spend as much time with him. Due to life's circumstances, we had to be apart while I was growing up. I was too young to understand how it might hurt for a father, not being able to see his daughter growing up and live her childhood. As I mature, situations loosen and I was able to re-kindle our relationship. But I guess, by then, Papa have missed some of the best moments in my life. And I understand now, it must have hurt him to know that he couldn't be there.

So Papa, for this year's birthday, I'll blow my candles and make a wish for you. Thank you for your patience, love and strength for not giving up on me throughout all that has happened. May all your wishes come true and hope that this year will bring you so much joy and happiness that you truly deserve.

I love you, Papa...

2 down... 2 to go!!!!

OK, today I officially finished 2 exams- the first (EEPS14) was last Wednesday and today was EEPS15.

I know that I didn't do well on EEPS14 coz I panicked half way through the exams, as I got confused with 1 simple formula and needed to go to the toilet so badly. I ended up screwing my answer sheets with loads of liquid paper and pencil marks that by the time I submitted it, I forgot what I actually wrote. I soon found out after that one of the questions that I thought I scored, was actually wrong- I used a wrong method to solve it!!! Sigh.... no point moaning anymore, what's done is done and let's FORGIVE & FORGET :(

Today's paper was allright. Of course I had my panic attack (and the need for the toilet, as usual)... but I managed to calm down at the end of it and got through quite well. If I'm not careless in my calculations, I should be OK.

So, since we are halfway through the exams, Wong & I had a mini-celebration. Wong treated me to a dim-sum lunch at Tai-Pan- so sedap!!!! We ate like mad until tak larat bangun! It was really good, thank you Wong!!! I like... :)

When I reached home, I took a deserving nap and at 5pm, I was off to work. Unfortunately, the internet was down the whole day and I had to endeavour numerous irritated and frustrated calls from the residents here. It was quite a challenge to calm them down... but all went well when the internet's up again just a few minutes ago....

So, now I have 2 more exams coming up next week- worst thing is its a back-to-back one! I'm all fired -up to finish this exam nonsense. I'll have to cover 2 modules at the same time. Its like killing 2 birds with one stone....

I'm on quarantine...

Sorry, I haven't been updating the blog much...

I have 3 days to the exams and have been running around like a mad woman trying to sort out my notes and also stuffing my head with as much info as possible to meet my schedule. I'm falling far behind as planned - it's much difficult this time than last semester. So much to study with so little time! Aiyaaaa... so takutlah this exams....

So, from today onwards I vow to stay locked up in my room and finish all my past year exam questions and tutorials...

I'm putting myself in quarantine!



p/s: Ibdil, welcome to my blog :) ... and Devina, I'm so jealous- benci! ;p

Changing gear is so difficult....

As I'm officially starting my studies for the exams today, I find it really difficult to get back in gear. I was on full speed before my cousin arrived, finishing 2 modules and doing some tutorials and past exam questions tirelessly till early morning. Then, when my cousins were here, it was a total halt - no books in sight, no formulas memorised and obviously none of my past exam questions were touched.

Today, I found it so difficult to start all over. I had a heavy headache (I think I'm beginning to start a fever) and it took me till mid-day to actually sit down properly on my study table and opened my Power System Economics book!

As usual, I procrastinated - a powerful skill I have mastered throughout these years. I started the day doing laundry la, kemas my dapur la, update my frienster la... the list went on until 3pm, when I realised that I had nothing else to do except hit my books >:/

So, now I've started studying a bit and am taking a short break. I realised now that I have so much more to cover and am frustrated why I didn't start studying earlier! Oh well, the time had passed and there's nothing I can do to get it back.

At least, I changed a gear and moved a bit faster than yesterday.... So now, I guess I just need to keep on moving.....

Manchester, North Wales, York & London in 7 days!!!

Oh my God, I'm so tired........

As you know, my cousins came from Malaysia and I had to play host for the whole week. We went to North Wales, York, London and spent the rest of the week here in Manchester. It was fun, as I haven't hang out with this cousin of mine for years. They had a good taste of English weather while they were here... in 1 day, it was raining, sunny, hailing, sunny, windy and sunny again. But they did say they had loads of fun... and enjoyed Manchester the most, especially at Primark!!! hehehe..

As I sent them at the airport last night, I so wished it was me boarding that plane. Suddenly, I missed home, missed my mom, my hubby and most of all my Boboy... I miss my best friends too. Suddenly, the thought of hanging out with my girls in KLCC sipping cold Coffee-Bean ice blended and ah yes, the Spaghetti Carbonara sedap.... or lepak with hubby in front of my big TV at home watching CSI back to back with Boboy cuddling with us...

Anyways, I'm back at home alone. Trying to start all over with work and studies. Managed to finish my courseworks this morning. Now, struggling to start studying again for the coming exams. Can't believe I have 10 days more, time travels too fast....

I wanna go home :(

The big weekend is coming!

Its 2am in the morning and I've just done my laundry. I have a meeting with my lecturer at 9.30am later, and I should be asleep by now. But, I can't get myself to relax because I'm so stressed out that my cousin's coming to visit tomorrow from Malaysia. I have so much to do!!! I need to clean the house- sweep, vacuum & mop, clean the bathroom, get my bed ready, do the dishes & pick-up my groceries. On top of all these, I need to finish up 2 courseworks and make-up for the studies I'm lagging behind!

I can't say I was productive earlier today coz I was taking it reeaaaallllyy slow finishing up Dr Kapas's module. I should speed up coz I am lagging behind from my schedule now... I'm just so worried that I'll get worse when Nurul's here coz I need to juggle work, studies and travel.

Oh my, all this anxiety's really stressing me out... I think I need to go to bed now. Wish me luck for the big weekend!

Good Morning!!!!!

Yes, I woke up at 8.30am on my own today!!!! Since this might be my once-in-a-lifetime achievement, I might as well record it down.

I'm so lembab la.....

Today I woke up at noon, despite having an early night last night. It's so frustrating knowing that I just lost half a day! I had to go town to pick up my new handphone and by the time I got home and got settled down, it's already 9pm and I'm sleepy again!!!

I literally feel so lembab. My brain feels like its so full and heavy that I can't even start studying, let alone concentrate! I dunno what else to do...

Hmmmm.... I'll try take a nice shower and pop some Pro-Plus after this. Hopefully, it will keep me awake for at least another 3 hours to finish up a chapter of Dr Kapas's module. I know I've studied his module before, but I can never remember anything I've read! Oh, this feels awful and I'm really irritated with myself >:/

Hopefully, I'm not gonna get myself sick again coz it was a really cold day today and I was wearing a bit light for the weather. I hope all this lembab-ness is not a sign of a coming fever!

Urghhh... hate this lembab feeling.

A slow but productive weekend....

I have started my studies for the exam, following my much-put-in-effort study schedule I've pasted all over my room. I am working really hard to try to score a distinction for my coming exams. I figured since this will be my last exams of my lifetime, I better make sure that I do my best in it. At least I know that I have tried my best.

I started really slow on Saturday, having more than 14hours sleep from Friday night and then a further 4 hours nap on Saturday afternoon! I woke up feeling angry for my laziness.... plus my tummy wasn't in a good mood either (must be because I pigged out from the buffet). So, I only started revising after 6pm. I managed to just do a couple of past exam questions and called it a night.

Today, surprisingly I woke up quite early, had breakfast and then jetted off to town to buy some groceries and stationeries. By 3pm, I was home, cooked lunch and started studying again till 7pm. Then I cooked a hearty dinner and spent the night having girlie-talks with my sis, Serina. By 10pm, I'm back at my study table, finishing my last few chapters as planned.

I'm glad I had a good girlie talk with Serina. We talked about things we wish to achieve and its good to know that Alhamdulillah, I have been quite lucky to be where I want to be in life.

I know I still have a long way to go.... but at the end of the journey, I wish I've settled down with my Hubby, feeling proud and happy, after accomplishing things we've set out to do. I dream of waking up in the morning with Boboy & Hubby, enjoying the morning sun from our Kampung Warisan balcony and spending the day relaxing, having no worries of money or stresses at work. In the evening, we'll then take a short ride in our BMW X5, go watch a movie or have a nice lambchop dinner. If we feel a bit adventurous, we'll just book a flight for a nice holiday..... aaaahhhh... such a good life....









Well, if it's meant to be, then it's up to me.....
OK, back to reality, I'm off to continue my studies...

Goodbye classes.....

Today is officially the last day of class, the end of spring semester and the beginning of Easter break. Oh my, time passes so fast... I've already done half a year here in UK! I bet time is going to fly, that it will soon be exams period<:/ We had a buffet lunch with my classmates and I was so dead full. Came back from class and couldn't do anything but lepak until 5pm. Then, I was off to work till 7pm and lepak some more. I literally dozed off and woke up recently to get a glass of water. I'm planning to sleep back again and have an early rest. Too lazy to do anything. I was busy the past few days finishing up my courseworks and attending tutorial sessions. Thus, I think I deserve a break tonight and hope to start fresh tomorrow to study. So, I plan to enjoy this break and not do anything but lepak and enjoy the laziness.....