I wanted to save something I really missed having. But it's time to let go now.
Will I be sad? Yes, it brought tears in my eyes.
Will I recover? Yes, because I realise now that it was not worth keeping.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
Dear Haidan, get well soon please....
Last Wednesday, Mama got a call from the nursery around lunch time. Your carer, Illetia wanted Mama to come pick you up because you had a high temperature and that you didn't respond well to Calpol. Mama rushed to the nursery and Illetia was right, you didn't look happy at all. It was the first time you didn't smile when you see me- you looked so weak and fragile. Mama called the local surgery and the GP could only see you at 6.30pm. While waiting at home, Mama gave you another dose of Calpol. Your temperature dropped this time and by the time the GP saw you, you looked well. The GP crossed out flu and cold coz you didn't have any runny nose or cough. He said you were probably teething, and that you should be OK the next day. He sent us home without any prescriptions.
Yesterday morning, your temperature soared again. Mama gave you some Neurofen with breakfast and you were fine. You were a bit moody, but Mama thought it might just be the teething. After lunch around 11.30am, you looked tired and took a nap in the living room with your favourite teddy. Since you needed your rest, Mama left you there while attending to the house chores - yes, the laundry in the guest room is mounting up, it looks like we have a mini volcano about to explode!
Time passes so fast while Mama sorted the laundry when suddenly Mama realised that it was nearly 6pm. Mama's instinct kicked in- this can't be right, Haidan will never take this long a nap. When Mama checked on you, Mama nearly had a heart attack - your hands were shiveriing, your body stiff, your tiny fingers were clenched tightly and you look really pale and your lips were purplish. Your feet were freezing cold. Mama was dead panic and wrapped you up with all the towels and blankets Mama could find while feeding you a bottle of warm milk. A few minutes later, your temperature suddenly soared high to 39.2deg and Mama had to strip you off and give you more Neurofen. You were still stiff and breathing fast. Mama called Papa to rush home and your Aunty Marisa for help. She advised us to rush to the hospital. Mama was all shaking and couldn't think straight - all I could think of while preparing you was how stupid I was leaving you and how bad a mother I am.
As soon as I picked you up to the car seat, you vomited (a lot!) all over Mama's shirt and hair. "Oh no!" Mama screamed in panic... and suddenly, out of all the chaos... you smiled! Your face lit up again, no more stiffness, your purpled lips has turn pink and there it was, a great big giggle from you, as if nothing had happened! (Mama swears that she was close to fainting, OK...). And like perfect timing, your Papa rushed into the door. To his surprise, you were all happy and excited and with your big smile you greeted him, "Papapapapa!".
"OK jerr... nampak sihat, tak sakit pun???" Papa remarked. (Mama was so tempted to give Papa a tight slap, but decided to clean your vomit with Papa's towel instead). Determined that something was wrong, Mama collected some urine sample from you- which you happily cooperated, since you were such in a good mood.
We went to St Helier's Hospital and at 10pm, the GP checked on you. He said you looked well and gave Mama "the stare" instead. When Mama passed him your urine sample, he took out the test kit and suddenly his face changed when he saw the results. He made a few phone calls and was starting to prepare some forms. He then came back and told us to go to the Emergency unit, where the paediatrician was already waiting.
By midnight, we were in the Emergency ward and the nurses took more urine samples. Your paed, Dr Heather explained that they suspect you to have a UTI (urinary tract infection) that might have to do with your kidneys. They will run more tests in the morning and sent us home with antibiotics.
When we got home and put you to bed, you had another fit episode at about 1.30am. Again, you were shivering and your temperature soared to 40deg, your highest ever. Your little fingers were clenching to ours as if in pain. We were told to give your medications and sponging, which worked to bring your temperature down again.
Dear Haidan, as we wait to hear from the lab results, Mama promise to be with you all the way through this OK. Mama will never let you off her sight anymore. Thank you ever so much to your caring Aunties & Uncles who called and sms to check on you; including Mummy Vas who was really worried - kept us awake all night to make sure we check on you properly (bless her...). Love you all!
Get well soon sayang, please...
Yesterday morning, your temperature soared again. Mama gave you some Neurofen with breakfast and you were fine. You were a bit moody, but Mama thought it might just be the teething. After lunch around 11.30am, you looked tired and took a nap in the living room with your favourite teddy. Since you needed your rest, Mama left you there while attending to the house chores - yes, the laundry in the guest room is mounting up, it looks like we have a mini volcano about to explode!
Time passes so fast while Mama sorted the laundry when suddenly Mama realised that it was nearly 6pm. Mama's instinct kicked in- this can't be right, Haidan will never take this long a nap. When Mama checked on you, Mama nearly had a heart attack - your hands were shiveriing, your body stiff, your tiny fingers were clenched tightly and you look really pale and your lips were purplish. Your feet were freezing cold. Mama was dead panic and wrapped you up with all the towels and blankets Mama could find while feeding you a bottle of warm milk. A few minutes later, your temperature suddenly soared high to 39.2deg and Mama had to strip you off and give you more Neurofen. You were still stiff and breathing fast. Mama called Papa to rush home and your Aunty Marisa for help. She advised us to rush to the hospital. Mama was all shaking and couldn't think straight - all I could think of while preparing you was how stupid I was leaving you and how bad a mother I am.
As soon as I picked you up to the car seat, you vomited (a lot!) all over Mama's shirt and hair. "Oh no!" Mama screamed in panic... and suddenly, out of all the chaos... you smiled! Your face lit up again, no more stiffness, your purpled lips has turn pink and there it was, a great big giggle from you, as if nothing had happened! (Mama swears that she was close to fainting, OK...). And like perfect timing, your Papa rushed into the door. To his surprise, you were all happy and excited and with your big smile you greeted him, "Papapapapa!".
"OK jerr... nampak sihat, tak sakit pun???" Papa remarked. (Mama was so tempted to give Papa a tight slap, but decided to clean your vomit with Papa's towel instead). Determined that something was wrong, Mama collected some urine sample from you- which you happily cooperated, since you were such in a good mood.
We went to St Helier's Hospital and at 10pm, the GP checked on you. He said you looked well and gave Mama "the stare" instead. When Mama passed him your urine sample, he took out the test kit and suddenly his face changed when he saw the results. He made a few phone calls and was starting to prepare some forms. He then came back and told us to go to the Emergency unit, where the paediatrician was already waiting.
By midnight, we were in the Emergency ward and the nurses took more urine samples. Your paed, Dr Heather explained that they suspect you to have a UTI (urinary tract infection) that might have to do with your kidneys. They will run more tests in the morning and sent us home with antibiotics.
When we got home and put you to bed, you had another fit episode at about 1.30am. Again, you were shivering and your temperature soared to 40deg, your highest ever. Your little fingers were clenching to ours as if in pain. We were told to give your medications and sponging, which worked to bring your temperature down again.
Dear Haidan, as we wait to hear from the lab results, Mama promise to be with you all the way through this OK. Mama will never let you off her sight anymore. Thank you ever so much to your caring Aunties & Uncles who called and sms to check on you; including Mummy Vas who was really worried - kept us awake all night to make sure we check on you properly (bless her...). Love you all!
Get well soon sayang, please...
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Prime member??? Yah, right!
I wanted to surprise Hubby for Father's Day. I knew what to get him. In fear of him finding out, and knowing how busybody curious he naturally is, I figured I would only nip by the shops to get it (all wrapped and ready) during the last couple of days before Father's Day.
Unfortunately, work was super busy in the last 2 weeks (boss was in the States and left loads of work), the shops are well closed by the time I reach home (err... Sutton a bit kampung- 4.55pm sharp, all shops closed shut!).
I panicked. I scoured through the internet for reasonable deals that could deliver his present within a couple of days. Then I found Amazon Prime - a membership that entitles for unlimited "next day delivery" for my Amazon buys for just £49 per year is having a free trial period. Fantastic! Dengan serba rakus, I signed up and Hubby's present will arrive on time for Father's Day on 14th June, all wrapped up with a card and all! Hoorrraaaayyyyy!!!!
..... >:/
It's Tuesday, 17 June - Father's Day has gone and passed and I still have not heard from Amazon "Prime". This past 2 days of tracking the parcel was a nightmare! 'Prime' member my a*s*.. and to make it worst, Hubby (who by now OBVIOUSLY knew what the gift was) said, "Hmmm... kalau I tahu you nak kasi I tuh, baik kita gi beli sesama jer kat kedai dekat rumah kita tuh"
Hmmphh! Sabo jer lah!
Unfortunately, work was super busy in the last 2 weeks (boss was in the States and left loads of work), the shops are well closed by the time I reach home (err... Sutton a bit kampung- 4.55pm sharp, all shops closed shut!).
I panicked. I scoured through the internet for reasonable deals that could deliver his present within a couple of days. Then I found Amazon Prime - a membership that entitles for unlimited "next day delivery" for my Amazon buys for just £49 per year is having a free trial period. Fantastic! Dengan serba rakus, I signed up and Hubby's present will arrive on time for Father's Day on 14th June, all wrapped up with a card and all! Hoorrraaaayyyyy!!!!
..... >:/
It's Tuesday, 17 June - Father's Day has gone and passed and I still have not heard from Amazon "Prime". This past 2 days of tracking the parcel was a nightmare! 'Prime' member my a*s*.. and to make it worst, Hubby (who by now OBVIOUSLY knew what the gift was) said, "Hmmm... kalau I tahu you nak kasi I tuh, baik kita gi beli sesama jer kat kedai dekat rumah kita tuh"
Hmmphh! Sabo jer lah!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Carried away....
Thanks to Marisa for organising a great day out with the girls. As usual, food was glorious and the company fabulous!
Anyways, the movie made me cry... it reminded me of my best friends and how much I miss the good old days- through the good and bad, we had each other. Back then, it didn't matter whether we earn zillions or we have tummies or we didn't fly straight from SPM- we were always there for each other.
Never take your best friends for granted... Sincere friendships will last, and that was what the movie (and life while we're at it) is all about.
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