Cough, cough, snort, croak

Yes.

This is exactly how I sound right now.

Been down with the winter bug since Tuesday and have been awful- my nose is completely blocked, I croak when I talk and when I cough I sound like a mining site (kong, kong, kong)... just awful!

One more day to go and I'm officially on holiday for Xmas and the New Year.

The weather has been crap as it has been snowing and everything in UK just halts when it snows.... (except work deadlines funnily enough!).

I have loads to do at work, loads to do at home and I haven't packed for our annual shopping getaway this Saturday.

Sigh.....

The green one....

We were driving home from Westfields in Central London when suddenly:

Haidan (all excited): Mama! Mama! Look! That's you Mama!

Me: Huh?? Where?

Haidan: Over there! Look..... The green one



Haidan (beaming with pride): That's you Mama!

Me: Errr... ok then.... thank you, Haidan.

Haidan (smiling): Your welcome.

Sigh.....sabor je lah!

Home Alone

Six months have passed (time flies!) and it was time for Mama to leave us again. This year's departure was particularly sad because Haidan is a little bit bigger, hence he can interact with his Nenek. In fact they have formed such a close bond, Haidan was always excited to go home from nursery to tell Nenek what he had been up to. They spent so much time together - Mama being the one yang layan whatever Haidan wants to play. They cooked, they did gardening, getting wet washing the balcony and even mandikan Haidan's toys! Things that I rarely have time to layan Haidan with, to be honest.

I could see Mama left with a heavy heart at the airport, as soon as it was time to go. I'm sure she will miss him very much - she didn't want to talk about it when I asked her... that's Mama. She won't show emotions.

Hubby has been gone travelling for work (yet again) since last week. So, after Haidan and I sent Mama to the airport - it was just the 2 of us left. I wasn't worried being on my own to take care of Haidan - I was far more concerned on how Haidan was feeling when suddenly Papa & Nenek are no longer around.

But Alhamdulillah, he was OK. Yes he did ask about Nenek and Papa now and then but he didn't dwell too much on it. The best part was last night:

Haidan: Mama, where's Papa?
Me: Papa gone to work.
Haidan: Oooh.... Mama, where's Nenek?
Me: Nenek gone home.
Haidan: Oooh... everybody's gone now. Mama, dont be sad okkaaayyy. Haidan's not gone....

And he gave me a big hug.

Err... hello?

Errr... yes. This blog has been dead for exactly 1 year.

I blame it on the restricted access to update it - in the office blogspot is banned and at home with Haidan clinging on my leg most of the time. Oh and yes of course, it has everything to do with my ke'malas'an tahap tertinggi..... so I do apologise.

Mostly the apology is to myself (coz I don't think anyone reads my blog anyways!) - there were so many things that had happened within this one year, feel so rugi that I didn't blog about it. Ye-lah mana tahu, one day when Haidan grows up and gets married and have children and he wanted to share all the crazy things Nenek has been up to 20 years ago, he could have this blog to view......

In the meantime, I shall try my best to pick-up where I left off and try to update as much as I can.

It's Ramadhan now and Mama is here. Soon it will be Hari Raya Aidilfitri. So here's a message to everyone:


Selamat Berpuasa & Salam Aidilfitri 2010. Maaf Zahir Batin.